Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Today was such a great day!!!
Today was so Great! I actually felt like a normal person! My mother and I went to two stores. I actually stayed int the stores and was only a tiny bit anxious, but it didn't last the whole time. And we even went to a restaurant and ate. I stayed in the whole time and didn't panic. I had to share this! I have to thank God for giving the strength. And I have to thank All the people who have been so supportive of me lately. I know that it has helped to give me confidence. Thank you!
Monday, June 11, 2012
When Criticism comes....
In a earlier blog post I wrote how when having anxiety people have certain expectations of you and where you should be. Well, everyday I read a daily devotional and these two devotionals really helped.
June 9th
Do What God Expects
Thus says the Lord of host: Do not listen to the word of the (false) prophets who prophesy to you. They teach you vanity and fill you with vain hopes; they speak a vision of their own minds and not from the mouth of the Lord. Jeremiah 23:16
Don't let the people around you determine your values or behavior patterns. It seems that everyone expects something a little different but one thing for sure is that all these people expect us to keep them happy and give them what they want.
Many times the expectations people put on us and we accept are unrealistic. If you want to have confidence, you must stop trying to be "superwoman" Realize you have limitations and that you cannot keep all the people happy all the time.
This is one of the amazing traits we see in Jesus. He was the same all the time. He changed people they did not change Him
When unhappy people are unsuccessful in making you unhappy they begin to respect and admire you. They see that your Christianity is something real. Even people who seek to control you will disrespect you if you allow them to have power over you. I encourage you to be your own person. Do what God expects you to do and don't live under tyranny of other people's expectations
Prayer:
Lord, I can't possibly fulfill everyone else's expectations and demands. Help me to clearly see Your values and live according to them. Keep me free from others who want control. Amen.
June 11th
When Criticism Comes
But it matters very little to me that I should be put on trial by you and that you or any other human tribunal should investigate and question and cross question me. I do not even put myself on trial and judge myself... it is the Lord who examines and judges me. 1 Corinthians 4: 3-4
No matter what you do in life you will be criticized by someone. so you must learn to cope with it and not let it bother you. Criticism is very difficult for most of us, and a person's self image can be damaged at all by criticism. Every great manor woman has had to learn how to cope with criticism. we must know our won hearts and not allow others to judge us.
The apostle Paul experienced criticism about many things. People love you when you are doing everything they want you to do and are quick to criticize when just one little thing goes wrong. Paul said that he was not in the least bit concerned about the judgments of others. He said that he did not even judge himself he knew he was in God's hands. and that he would stand before God and give an account of himself and his life. We should only be concerned with God's judgment not others'.
Prayer: Lord, when criticism comes, help me to remember that You are my only true judge. Rather than let it harm me, I bring it to you and it in your hands. Amen....
It says in the bible in Matthew 5:44
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
June 9th
Do What God Expects
Thus says the Lord of host: Do not listen to the word of the (false) prophets who prophesy to you. They teach you vanity and fill you with vain hopes; they speak a vision of their own minds and not from the mouth of the Lord. Jeremiah 23:16
Don't let the people around you determine your values or behavior patterns. It seems that everyone expects something a little different but one thing for sure is that all these people expect us to keep them happy and give them what they want.
Many times the expectations people put on us and we accept are unrealistic. If you want to have confidence, you must stop trying to be "superwoman" Realize you have limitations and that you cannot keep all the people happy all the time.
This is one of the amazing traits we see in Jesus. He was the same all the time. He changed people they did not change Him
When unhappy people are unsuccessful in making you unhappy they begin to respect and admire you. They see that your Christianity is something real. Even people who seek to control you will disrespect you if you allow them to have power over you. I encourage you to be your own person. Do what God expects you to do and don't live under tyranny of other people's expectations
Prayer:
Lord, I can't possibly fulfill everyone else's expectations and demands. Help me to clearly see Your values and live according to them. Keep me free from others who want control. Amen.
June 11th
When Criticism Comes
But it matters very little to me that I should be put on trial by you and that you or any other human tribunal should investigate and question and cross question me. I do not even put myself on trial and judge myself... it is the Lord who examines and judges me. 1 Corinthians 4: 3-4
No matter what you do in life you will be criticized by someone. so you must learn to cope with it and not let it bother you. Criticism is very difficult for most of us, and a person's self image can be damaged at all by criticism. Every great manor woman has had to learn how to cope with criticism. we must know our won hearts and not allow others to judge us.
The apostle Paul experienced criticism about many things. People love you when you are doing everything they want you to do and are quick to criticize when just one little thing goes wrong. Paul said that he was not in the least bit concerned about the judgments of others. He said that he did not even judge himself he knew he was in God's hands. and that he would stand before God and give an account of himself and his life. We should only be concerned with God's judgment not others'.
Prayer: Lord, when criticism comes, help me to remember that You are my only true judge. Rather than let it harm me, I bring it to you and it in your hands. Amen....
It says in the bible in Matthew 5:44
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
Things I can use to grow from having anxiety...
-To be more compassionate, patient and loving towards people, even when I may not understand them or what they are going through.
-To lean and trust in God
-Just because I have to rely on someone doesn't mean I am weak.
-That I need to be more confident and less critical of myself.
-To take one day at a time.
- To celebrate every accomplishment whether it be big or small.
-Look for the good in everything
-To not let others opinions of me or where I am make me feel as if I or what I am doing isn't good enough. If you are doing the best you can, that's what matters.
-That I am stronger than I thought I was
-That I should praise God even now in my troubles. Because he is with me helping me along and will get me through
-To lean and trust in God
-Just because I have to rely on someone doesn't mean I am weak.
-That I need to be more confident and less critical of myself.
-To take one day at a time.
- To celebrate every accomplishment whether it be big or small.
-Look for the good in everything
-To not let others opinions of me or where I am make me feel as if I or what I am doing isn't good enough. If you are doing the best you can, that's what matters.
-That I am stronger than I thought I was
-That I should praise God even now in my troubles. Because he is with me helping me along and will get me through
Friday, June 8, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
The hardest part to me about anxiety.
The hardest part to me about anxiety is having to be dependent on people. Before the anxiety I had a job. I took care of myself completely. I was very independent and self reliant. Now, I can't go to the store, have a job, be at home alone. It's so ridiculous because with my logical mind, I say this is so easy. This is everyday stuff. But the anxiety tells me that I can't do it or otherwise you will die! I fight all the time to overcome this. I have got a lot better, because before I couldn't go anywhere, but now I can go some places as long as there is not a huge crowd of people. I know when I overcome this I will be a stronger person, but right now it's so hard! I have lost "friends" because I couldn't be there like they would have liked. I feel as though no one fully understands. I have been criticized by being called lazy and crazy. I have noticed that after a while people lose their compassion and patience with you. They expect for things to change over night and for you to get back to normal. But what they don't understand is that you don't want to be this way! They don't understand that you are tormented with fear that cripples you. Like I said earlier I know that I am going to overcome this and I am going to become a stronger person in the end! I am going through this for a reason. Hopefully through my experience I can help others. I am leaning on God. I hold on to his word. He said he would not leave us or forsake us. And I know that he is with me and helping through this time in my life.
Here is a prayer that I wrote before when I was having a panic attack:
Right now I feel like I wanna cry. I am sad because I feel like such a weak person. I have to rely on someone for everything. I want to be free! Free from the bondage of this anxiety! I miss the days when I Loved going to the store and shopping and NOT think or wonder if I am gonna have a panic attack. I feel trapped and this is going to be my life til the day that I die. PLEASE GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME! I am TIRED of fighting this. It seems that even though I try and try it only eases up for a short time. Lord I am reaching my hand towards you. I need you! Please take this burden off my shoulders. I want to be completely happy. I want to be a better daughter, mother, granddaughter, niece, friend, girlfriend and sister. I want for people to need me. Not for me to need them. I love you Lord and I know you will answer my prayers.
Mysterious Pain by Peggy Stewart
Mysterious Pain
© Peggy Stewart
With her head hung low
and nowhere to go
She can't explain
this mysterious pain
It comes on so fast
How long will it last
Her heart is just pounding, her head starts to spin
Please go away, she does not want you in
She's uncontrollably crying
It feels like she's dying
Her body is trembling, her hands start to shake
She feels so helpless with this horrible ache
Someone, please help her, make this go away
She can't stand to feel this way one more day
Someone, please help her, she's down on her knees
She's scared and helpless and hopes no one sees
With her head hung low
not knowing where to go
She tries to explain
This mysterious pain
and nowhere to go
She can't explain
this mysterious pain
It comes on so fast
How long will it last
Her heart is just pounding, her head starts to spin
Please go away, she does not want you in
She's uncontrollably crying
It feels like she's dying
Her body is trembling, her hands start to shake
She feels so helpless with this horrible ache
Someone, please help her, make this go away
She can't stand to feel this way one more day
Someone, please help her, she's down on her knees
She's scared and helpless and hopes no one sees
With her head hung low
not knowing where to go
She tries to explain
This mysterious pain
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Lately I have been working on my anxiety by getting closer to God. I've been reading my bible. Reading a daily devotional.(Joyce Meyer's Confident woman.) Praying and listening to Christian music. Songs I love and that help are: Declaration, I smile and Imagine me by Kirk Franklin. I also have been reading a book by Joyce Meyers called The confident woman. I will put links to all below. I have come to a realization that this anxiety is something that I have to work hard to overcome, but I believe it is possible to overcome!
The Confident Woman.
Imagine me
I smile
Declaration
The Confident Woman.
Imagine me
I smile
Declaration
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