Feeling overloaded today. I feel that I am being misunderstood and judged on a constant. I feel hurt and angry by what people say and the way people treat me! It feels as though I always have to be the one to forgive first, apologize, when I feel I have done nothing wrong, turn the other cheek etc....when most of the time, they either deny their part, aren't held responsibly for their actions, they act as if nothing ever happened, or ask for forgiveness, but never change their actions. I think it's also crazy how when I finally get sick and tired of being treated a certain way and I confront them about it they act as if they have no idea what I am talking about or they get angry, because I confronted them about it and act like I overly dramatize things. But the thing is, they are not the ones being hurt by their words or actions, so for them, it is easy to get over, but if the shoe were on the other foot I think they would feel the same way. Now, am I sometimes overly sensitive? Yes. Do I sometimes misunderatand people? Yes. But is it always me misinterpreting everything? No. I feel if it's not my anxiety, it's this person, or that person. And it's not like I can just completely just remove these people from my life, or I would have done it already. And I can't change anyone, but myself. So....Err! That leads me back to me having to do the right thing, which is forgive. So I will do what I know to do when I can't do things within myself, and that is, go to God in prayer.

God, I need you! I need your help in this situation. First, I need your peace. You know, what I face. You know my struggles. You know my hurts. Can you please heal my wounds and help me to forgive those who hurt me. Help me to always do what is right even when what is right isn't being done to me. Lord, can you teach me to forgive quickly and to love deeply. I want to be like you! If anyone else, that is reading this and is overwhelmed or carries a heavy burden, Lord, I ask you to lift and carry that burden for them today. Let them know you are near and let them feel your comforting peaceful presence in Jesus name, Amen.

Food for thought:

In Galations 6:9 it says, so let's not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up.